我話你知, Zen...

2012-02-07T00:22:00.001+08:00

:( pls dun let it happen.. Pls dun let me give up

2012-02-06T12:52:00.001+08:00

Thought we could have nice n warm dinner together, think it could never happen

=]

2012-01-25T00:59:00.003+08:00

我曾经有一个爱情故事

我开始怀疑它是否真实

火热的爱情只出于暂时

又何必固执于偶然的事

忘了吧忘了吧爱情故事

不如醉生梦死一无所知

再提起再提起无补于事

知道了又怎样重新开始

我曾经有一个爱情故事

一生中也无法彻底忘记

2012-01-24T22:22:00.001+08:00

I have given up on talking myself into it...

2012-01-06T16:02:00.001+08:00

Im going to work hard hard like a cow ! No more going home earlier. Need to be more committed :) ima hit every quater and achieve what i want in the end :p Go Zen go, you wont die you know, what couldnt kill you make you stronger !

2011-12-06T20:58:00.001+08:00

Xmas is near....why am i not feeling that excited like i used to be? I need a switch ! switch it to Xmas mode ! =p

=]

2011-12-01T01:17:00.001+08:00

Smiley smilesss =]

Bye to Bling

2011-11-28T22:48:00.001+08:00

Bling Bling has finally being taken away from home. Feltheavy while sending her off, what else can be done , knowing that she couldlive better after leaving. She was crying, when she is placed in the car. Seeyou Bling =] Letting go is another way to love, so don’t you ever question ,the reason you are being sent away, not that we don’t love you… is that we loveyou too much to let you go to have a better environment. Love you heaps …

Updates 24/11/11

2011-11-24T21:59:00.001+08:00

1) Im not thinking any further, i look no farther ! Things are better to be left unsaid and, i shall sit back and take whatever that will come, i then have to thus rest my words... say no more.

2) Chances are only given twice ! i gave TDG red velvet another try, and adui it is disappointing ! Slice of heaven still serve the best red velvet ( of all the red velvet i've tried so far )

3) Thank god is Friday !

4) Feels like getting another piercing ! it would be my 11th, on my ear.

5) Thanks to PM, that got me into Ray Bans.... keep persuading me to buy that shades haha.

6) My favourite month of the year coming to the end, again to wait for the next novermber =p

7) Say is always easier than doing, when u say something, u walk the talk, bring it into actions. Picked up somethg from my colleague these few days since we have been spending most of the time together. " to handle urself use your brain; to handle others use your heart "

8) which path to be taken? property or business.

9) Listen ! im making tiramisu soon ! open for reservation. eat at your own risk !

10) I miss HK, feel like going back for a short holiday, for food !!

11) Did some packing , packed all the old memories into the emo box and located it on top of my closet, there you go Mr emo Box, that is gonna be your emo corner =p

Stupid driver

2011-11-20T18:49:00.001+08:00

Ello people pls be a lil bit more careful ! stop knocking dogs down on the road ! it is not really a pleasant scene to look at !

TeA oh TeA

2011-11-15T23:35:00.001+08:00

Tea oh Tea....

Would you like a cuppa calming tea? chamomile and lavendar, no ! not my cup of tea ! back to the basics, gorgeous geisha, sencha green with a light touch of strawberry flavouring from the dried strawberry pieces.

Now u made my day.

2011-11-15T21:43:00.001+08:00

I can slowly hear no more.

I can barely feel no more.

I can talk no more.

I live in my own world.

2011-11-13T23:11:00.001+08:00

For now I just hope it would be forever...

2011-11-12T00:38:00.001+08:00

1) Need to have faith =]

2) Need to conc on my work >_<

3) Need to make both parties feel secured =]

4) Need to exercise ! @.@

5) Need to have trust in you. =]

6) Need to control not overly missing you >_<

7) Need to be myself again, im so not myself now. =[

2011-10-27T00:00:00.000+08:00

Painful.. why is it so painful?

2011-10-19T13:08:00.001+08:00

Insecured, fluctuant

Emo

Dilemma

Lost

Worried

Bushed, burned out

Blur

What else to be addded into the list? Zen oh Zen

bits and bits in OZ land !

2011-10-16T19:07:00.020+08:00

Clean and Crystal clear =]
Sand Bath !

Jack ! i miss all your Farts and Shits lolz

Home made caramel popcorn ! credit to zen and alvin !

Fremantle walk
my fav gelato shop !
Freo fish n chip.
Millpoint for afternoon bbq

14th Oct

2011-10-14T23:08:00.001+08:00

This is what i called, pushing away.

2011-10-14T01:24:00.001+08:00

very simple, very easy...

i will work out to be the way people wana shape me into.

anything...

2011-10-11T01:02:00.001+08:00

i dont understand, i dont get it....

should i keep going, or should i put a stop?

what is that inside? im so scared.

:)

2011-10-04T21:01:00.000+08:00

Im glad. Thank you. :)

2011-09-25T23:30:00.002+08:00

There are times, when i feel like giving up with no doubts.

But i just cant, just knowing that i cant just let it slip away like that, but what can i do just to hold on to it?

It is cracking my internal bits by bits, for not having a slightest idea for all these shit.

I guess i would just need to keep reminding myself not to clenching my fist so tight, but to let it go slowly.

2011-09-21T00:52:00.001+08:00

Zen is letting go, im tired ! Im done ! That's it.

Good thing actually... from different perspectives !

九月十二日＇雨

2011-09-12T12:51:00.000+08:00

傷痕累累的感覺

Emo post, dun read !

2011-09-05T23:20:00.003+08:00

What ought to be let go, i have slowly moving til that level, what to be seared in one part of the heart is seared.

Im feeling so lost now, i dont even have the energy to work, im feeling as if im losing myself, a host that the soul has been left somewhere.

Im so tired, im bushed.

How many more layers of mask i have to put on?

I have lost my concentration !

2011-09-01T00:03:00.002+08:00

I dont have a clue, i dont understand, but as i always tell myself : nevermind zen, nevermind, never mind it, let it go and delete...

off to singapore !

2011-08-30T10:52:00.000+08:00

Zen, nevermind. Nevermind.. Nevermind.... Never mind it .

2011-08-26T21:06:00.000+08:00

Lolz got mom = no mom...

Lolz got father = no father

Lolz .... Lolz .....

First time posting blog at bistro.. Lolz..... I have so much things to say, Dreadful. But zen, u still need to stand, u r not stressful unless you need to bring home food on dining table. Zen remember this k ?? I know u can do it!! Overcome all the stuff buried in heart. U know u can becauae u always can, now , push urself a bit more:) it will be fine.

Mom u r beside me now, can u hear me ??

2011-08-24T23:58:00.004+08:00

To stand straight no matter what obstacles hit u, im glad I read this line ! All the best to you, and fully supports from here !!!!!!!!!!

substitution

2011-08-23T15:14:00.000+08:00

I dont know. I just dont understand. I just dont get it.

2011-08-22T23:44:00.003+08:00

u know why, because im stupid....

( how i wish, i can lift up some of the burdens of his, i heard evythg he said, and fack it, i couldnt help )

Stop haunting me

2011-08-22T12:30:00.000+08:00

Why am i always the one need to put and keep all the feelings into my box?? I said i can delete anythg i want to, but why it is not working for this time ?? Please stop haunting me this feeling, pls stop.

2011-08-19T02:14:00.001+08:00

now it is your turn to cry... =]

2011-05-03T19:25:00.001+08:00

me.could.be.better.

for.the.time.being.me.just.wanna.take.a.break.for.a.free.mind.

yearn.for.a.free.mind.a.free.soul.

28/4/11

2011-04-28T01:09:00.002+08:00

1) one of the things im wanting to do, to fly to penang for heavenly made food. yay for 14th may, im flying there.

2) One of the things i have been wishing, to fly to korea, to see Jang geun Suk. And im doing it now, hah, not all the way to korea, but might be one of the staff for his upcoming CRI show at Convention centre. Grant me this wish, oh god.

3) One of the things i have been longing to do, to drive, and i will be sending my bro to school soon.

4) One of the things i want to do it right now, is to sleep, but with a mind full of Jang geun Suk, it is impossible.

5) I am so blessed hohoho

A.N.JELL

2011-04-14T23:18:00.002+08:00

A.N.JELL .... omg !!!

17/3/11

2011-03-17T00:46:00.002+08:00

Could be better, aza fighting !

11/3/11

2011-03-11T00:52:00.002+08:00

09 March 2011,

too much of liquor, too much of spoken.

one thing good, relieved

one thing bad, gastric

8 march 2011

2011-03-08T02:04:00.001+08:00

1) Peaceful these days.... relieved

2) On the day itself, my reutrn from perth again, supposed to go to J's concert, but for some reasons, i gave up going.

3) Crashed car, scary........

4) on diet now, aza fighting !

5) deeply in love with body shop !

2011-02-22T15:02:00.001+08:00

我怎么老是做些吃力不讨好的事？

oh it is 17th of feb already

2011-02-17T00:22:00.002+08:00

今天特别多的感触。

1）went to curve for SHAOLIN, i swear i was enduring from crying throughout the whole movie, it was so sad, i meant the story line. I wonder, and i ponder, wasnt it that i have been finding reasons to tear, im strong isnt it supposed to be. I tried once, i cried when i was having dinner with family, like suddenly, something is really wrong, not right inside me, but what was it. the cause, is what i have been looking up and down so that i could tackle it.

2) i went to Giza's Baskin Robin to get bro's bday cake, and of course i would need to walk pass my parent's pub, i looked for my mom as i walked pass, the thing is, i didnt even wanna drop by and look in to say, hmm maybe " hello " ? i didnt want people to stare at me when i walk down the aisle into the pub. so i walked straight to baskin robin instead and rang her telling her im just opposite down to where she was standing. this is my mom, yes, but why am i not hopping into the pub giving her a peck on the cheek and say hello? i chose to walk away, and stared at her, making sure she isnt drunk at 8.30pm, and glad she isnt, i felt so sad and bad as i walked back to the car passing the pub and i did nothing but dropped her a sms asking her to drink less and " i love u " but i got nothing back from her.

3) i have a saying, and i actually not only talking, i walk the talk, i brought into action, i told myself, not to complain, not to repeat all the problems, i should have and i know i could have controlled my emotion, i must not let all my negative thoughts overwhelm me. i shouldnt only know to tear, that is what a baby does, a grown up will not do things like this. i need to be better.

4) i need to control the situation as well, because it is now not only affecting the family, but recently involved my only best friend. i need to stop it, not worsening any further.

2011-02-10T01:13:00.001+08:00

it is not just two faced, mind u, it is worse than u expected, 7 faced. So creepy that i wana die !

CNY

2011-02-07T22:41:00.002+08:00

Life has been good, any luck so far? so hell yea, everything has been very very good to me except for the 3 days straight diarrhea.

This is the first post since i came back from australia, came back for good, do miss my life there occasionnally, and i do really hope to have the chance going back for holidays.

Went to suzuki showroom the other day, aunts brought me there, i was so surprised, it is finally my turn to own a car !! but we didnt make the deal, the car is not compatible with its price, " no good no good"

New year, " u have gained some weight !! " i got this from everyone, not exaggerating it, but thats truth, SO HARSH !!

" are u working now " the second top question people asked. No not yet, holiday first.

Ate a lot this new year, like seriously alot ! and lots of jokes shared within family, seriously epic !!

Everyone is good, my parents are still the same, the only sad thing is that, my mom no longer staying by my side, she is busy with her stuff and so my dad. Hopefully we could really get back to the past, where mom, i could actually fought for the sofa and astro remote control.

lastly, desparately grabbing the chance to wish everyone a happy and better chinese year.

Ouch my stomach hurt again, too much SOTONG today !!!

2011-01-26T00:14:00.002+08:00

No, not entirely of what you r thinking of, just that, really, lots of problems are not able to be shared.

When it is being voiced out, there will be tons of troubles and waves gonna strike.

Nothing to do with the two great old at home, u entirely misunderstood what im talking about.
Just like, u wouldnt share your problems and your secrets with me, is not it?

just do hope u get the point, which is, no offences and always all the great efforts and sacrifices of the two great, will not be forgotten, and of course searing in heart forever and ever. I just dont want to create another issue nor misunderstandings again.

I just need to type it out ( previous blog ) and dont think that, i forget what they have done, it is just that the one used to be my listenner will no longer be mine, and i have been keeping problems and stuff since the one has pulled out form the important role she used to play.

2011-01-24T01:05:00.003+08:00

There are so many things that i cant say, i wanted to share, but i just couldnt.

My mom used to be the my listenner even though she always not giving advices, she only listen and continue watching tv even though i cry, but somehow, it did help me, at the very least, she listenned to it and i spilled.

But it wasnt like that now, she has her own problems too, and we r not seeing each other that often although we are staying under the same roof.

Before november, i feel so happy in aust and im so satisfied that i could sustain myself, all by myself, but right now, it is about time to leave and whenever i thought about it, I felt so pressured i dont know why, because i know that, when i go home, if i just simply utter a wrong word, i'll get troubles, and im pretty sure i couldnt voice or share my problems to the others, i knew i will get shoot for that, that is why i always feel emotional, because, im just not that strong.

Im so afraid i got inherited for something, from my mom, im worried, and i felt so bad these days and feeling so insecure knowing that im going back to msia soon, no offences, but i just feel insecure, and for the real reasons, u will need to kill me at first and probably dig some out from the heart?

I just feel so terrible right now.

so close yet so far

2011-01-18T22:19:00.003+08:00

When we say we are " close " to either family, friends..etc, it means

1) we could express ourself easily and showing true self
Conflicts : i wanted, always wanting, but i couldnt, they never understand and always come out with another thing, thought their own way, so i choose to keep everything with myself, i seldom have things or secrets or problems to share, not that i dont want, but i cant and i wont.

2) u can speak your mind to the someone u are closed with, but of course u still have to think before u speak for not hurting or offend the person u speak to.
Conflicts : my case would be, thinking for several times before talking, til an extend i gave up sharing my stuff.

Mind u, this post is not offensive, just sharing out thoughts, yet it doesnt mean im not being thankful to people who scrificed a lot for me. Anyhow this is my personal diary, i have rights to jot down what i felt, i swear on my life, this is really not an offesive post. Sometimes, i just need some places or opportunities to jot down.

I knew my blog wasnt a private blog, lots of my problems and stuff were not posted and shared, i just cant express myself here.

My wish would always be : a peace of mind

一个结

2011-01-17T01:07:00.001+08:00

暴力事件，我见得多，也已经麻木。
如果会发生在未来的我，我宁愿一无所有。

14th Jan 2011

2011-01-15T03:00:00.002+08:00

it is 3am now, we are still singing k here using youtube.com in Han's room ( housemate ), alvin and lok man and meeeeee...Melody went back to Hong kong d !! we miss u so muchie !!

Going to have another feast again with them tomorrow at KFC cause we got the coupons, yay !

Ok, yesterday, we sent Mel off to airport and it was really sad to send a close friend off like that knowing that when she comes back from HK in feb, that i wouldnt be here to see her again. Nevermind i believe i can always come back to see her and also the group !

So, Alvin and me refused to use public toilets because we thought that we can stand it til get home. I learnt my lessons, really, we should always expect for the unexpected, WE GOT LOST on our way home, we headed straight to the freeway where we supposed to exit the freeway, luckily lok man has iphone and thanks to apple, GPS our saviour.

Mel, we really miss u, but i miss u even more !

Now it is 3am again, no 1 in the room willing to sleep, sing softly thru the night, from old songs to new songs, i think that's because im leaving soon, everyone's like clutching the time. Ps : Hans still dare not to go toilet because we just finished one horror movie just now !!

11-1-11

2011-01-11T01:28:00.002+08:00

People asked me, why couldnt they leave comments for the post, right, this is something personal and for some reasons, i decided to privatise it and not allowing any comments to be posted upon my posts. Like, u wouldnt let people write or draw something in ur diary. And i would prefer people to talk to me personally, (if they care to talk about) ...

Now, dont repeat the question again.

10-1-11

2011-01-10T00:00:00.001+08:00

They are still the people i yearn for, when u woke with your eyes wide openned, u realised it was only just a dream.

Poppie corn night

2011-01-05T20:11:00.003+08:00

SO, proudly presenting our homemade Caramel pop corn !!! and we did watched SALT together yesterday night, but ended up half of the people fell asleep and some even went away to play games, bet the movie is abit too boring.

Anyways, we made the caramel ourself, do u believe it ?? we knew it was actually burnt sugar, but it is not easy to make hey ! but best luck be with us yesterday and we succeed at the first try !!

Lets see, oh yeah, can u see the golden shinny pop corn now? muahaaha dont drool !!! muahahha.

proudly introducing those people who deserve a credit ! those crediatably people are : Alvin chong, the one cooking caramel and stir fried the pop corn , Next Zen - who did all the pop corns, POP the corns ! Melody for helping of everything in the process. Keith and Hans, who only stood there and eat before movie starts. hahahhaha....

Hello 2011

2011-01-04T17:23:00.003+08:00

Lets just jot down and summarised what have i done in the past week.

24 Dec - Xmas eve dinner, there also gone my busy packed shifts.

26 Dec - boxing day, but i got to work, so i couldnt really went to shopping with others, mega sales man, not like msia sales only like 20%, here lot of stuff on sales, up to like 60 % and above!!

31 Dec - had another big new year eve dinner, did BBQ, but not with the fire, used electrical portable BBQ instead. Kinda cool, thinking to get one home, but how could i carry such a big parcel with me?? im working out, think zen think !

1st Jan - very first day of the year of 2011. i remember i did something this day, but i couldnt remember what i did, something to do with food too.

2nd Jan - Krystabel cooked us Indo dinner, all the Indo food la of course ! nice, especially the one with Kicap Manis. A joke to share along ! So, Krystabel made the kicap manis that night, and she rang me in the afternoon before the dinner " hey zen, ur house got kicap manis ar? " I thought it is something like the sweet sauce we can get in dim sum restaurant, so i said " eh kicap i got lar, u come and get and u add sugar yourself to make kicap manis " then she couldnt stop LOL.

3rd Jan - It is malaysian night, malaysian cuisine, so im not sure nasi lemak would be the first to come across your brain or not, but yea, i cooked nasi lemak, for 10 people ! i did it, i meant, not just edible but it is quite tasty !! muahahhaha. after dinner the girls were craving for ice cream, like we only browsed through the COLES's brochure and discuss about ice creams. At last we head to MCD for ince cream, 8 people of us ! cool hey ! it was really blissful when u get something u wish right away !

4th - today, no shifts again, sad, but we will be having a japanese night today, Joanna coming over to cook us teriyaki with jap noodle, and i'll be making pop corns for the later on movie night ! all the people coming to my house got to bring laptop for the entry ! because we dont have big and new tv, so what we have is only the soft copy of "SALT", we are going to transferred it to everyone's laptop and the laptops will be surroudning us ( surround sound system ) lolz !! but one thing is that we need to synchronise 5 laptops and start the same movie at once.

8th - gonna have Pat and Mel to come over and teach me baking tiramisu.

And i learnt to bake egg tarts !! hohoho

Nearly forgot !! WISHING U A BETTER YEAR OF 2011 !! CHEERS =]

Updates 30 Dec 2010

2010-12-30T19:15:00.004+08:00

WOAHHHH, not aware of how fast the time flies ! it was 2 weeks since last update, meaning, the remaining time of mine in Perth is slowly flowing away. anyways, these few weeks had been very happenning!

Xmas last week, well, had something like a Xmas eve dinner thingy with the group, then a Xmas Kringle section right after dinner. I brought my T2 tea and cannister for the Kringle thing, and got a cute mug in return. We had big ham leg, lamb, some roasted beef, 10 big turkey drumsticks, salad, lollies, but i ate only potato salad and some turkey meat cause i dont like lamb,and pork ! >_<".

The crowd at Garden city has gone, my workload has gone back to normal, i tell u huh, sienz til i cant even recognise my mom ( 闲到阿妈都不认得）.

Oh yeah, the stalker from last year, came back again, i was so shocked when he appeared once again, i knew it was him, when i met him back, so i pretended not seeing him, MANA TAHU, he came up straight and talked to me, asked me whether i still remember him, i said to him politely : " sorry i dont know u, and i dont remember we have met each other before ( well actually i remember, how could i not remember). "

Then he told me his name, i swear i did not know his name til he told me, i wasnt care at all to know his name , all i wanted is, that this fellow to stay away from me! i was pushing a trolley that time with a whole load of parcels, pushing them back to T2, he followed, nevermind, i thought i could leave him in the shop and go down to the store room again to get another batch of stocks, he followed me. "SHIT " i thought, while he was walking with me, i asked whether he is leaving, i wanted him to leave me alone so much, he said yea, god damn, the store room is beside the car park, so i couldnt really say that he is following me that time, so, by the time i reached store room, i quickly blocked the door using m heavy trolley ! luckily he only asking for my contact number, and i refused to give him, i quickly walked back to the shop and told my manager, and the next day, he appeared again, he left me no choice but to get my manager to talk to him, and kinda like embarassed him and not to come near me again, im sorry that i ned to do that, or else he will still come to me and keep asking me to go out. to be frank, this fellow is super duper annoying, he should suck it all up, and go tackle others, but not to mess with me, i mean, from the first sight of him, i knew that, i dont even want to be your friend.

Anyways, thanks to tsu jin, she got me into or more accurately, obsessed with a brand from LOndon, Radley London, love particularly the tan coloured bag and the black purse with dog ! =) Oh no, must not be a shopaholic.

18th Dec 2010

2010-12-18T21:12:00.002+08:00

Woot, it was a total chaos today at T2, where the hell all the people came from, and got stucked in T2, i could hardly move in the shop ! Wrapped approx 100 parcels today, have not stop wrapping from 9.30am til 5pm, except for the half an hour break in the middle. IT WAS SO COOL ！

Felt extremely happy and hyper today, til i couldnt hold my tongue telling my colleague : my life is so good !

Wonder why i felt that, probably, i just got myself something i have been longing to own, from the body shop? hahaha, god knows why, there might be some loosen screws in my brains.

Anyways, just got to know that, they ( T2-ians) are going to throw a BBQ farewell party at Mary's house for me, (oh yea, my manager), also with the Xmas Kringle section, im so excited and looking forward to it !

ONe thing about caucasians, is, they are all so friendly, love their smiles, it actually brighten ur days, with countless smiles everyday u can see. I love Perth !

couldnt type so much in this post, with my soring fingers ( boxed and wrapped 100 parcels ). So much joy in heart today =)

23-11-10

2010-11-23T00:37:00.002+08:00

Dear diary,

I have finally completed my degree, u may call me a biologist now. A biologist with no experiences though. However, a bachelor degree is rather common today, nothing really need to be proud of. Anyhow, i am relieved, after a long battle with the last 3 tough subjects, and sat for the very last paper today, and i would be sitting for any exams no more.

Degree is completed (yay for this), meaning, im gonna seriously consider what am i taking and will be facing next. I planned and decided, to back to Msia, with a bit savings of mine, supporting myself a car, as the begining asset of mine to start my long planned journey. I planned to get a second hand car, i dont dream for a nice brand new car, as it is just only a transport tool for me, not worth throwing money into cars, u see, i used the word "throwing" not "investing" because, the money i'll be using for the car, it will be my expenses, not an investment, it wont really bring me back money. So then, a second hand small car would be the ideal choice, and with the remaning savings, shall be kept for investment, or any other more meaningful uses.

Good money management is essential, to always be prepared for any unexpected conditions where they need to be solved using money. I learnt, not digging hole when only u feel like shitting. Always have a hole there, prepared for ya, anytime, anywhere. sorry i couldnt think of any better analogy.

I believe, if i continue to hold on my determination, my dreams will definitely come true one day, and the challenges for myself, will be achieved. I'll make sure that every moments in my life are remarkable and sear deeply in heart.

encouragement 2

2010-11-21T23:43:00.002+08:00

Hella, im so scared and worried ! genetic finals for tomorrow, the stress and burden are torturing me, and seriously stress the shit outta me ! my heart pumping so fast that i could'nt sleep and eat. oh man !

However, i know i can always make it in the end, because i dont like being defeated, u can say me Lan Si for saying that, but the truth is, if i wanna win the game, the efforts i paid in is countless and i shall make sure the efforts will be paid off. To improve, is to keep challenging urself, and it makes u stronger and stronger.

til then, i shall back to my notes ! if u think u can, of course u can!

encourgament 1

2010-11-16T00:00:00.000+08:00

Victory's within the miles, almost there, dont give up now !

life's still goes on, i still need to shit !!!!!

2010-11-15T21:58:00.001+08:00

time is still ticking, life's still goes on, everyone needs to move on, and i still need to shit, so y worries?

WEE wAng WanG ~

2010-11-10T04:00:00.003+08:00

Dear Diary,

1) I had a surprised bday party yesterday. memorable !

2) balloons are floating all around the floor, and scared the landlord when he dropped by. " what a mess ! "

3) Studying at livinig room, with balloons and a bowl of MnMs' from the party !

4) it is 4 am now, and i have not sleep for 24 hours, i feel like what zombie feels.

5) i think i need to crawl back to my room, like a zombie.

6) wEE, wang wang, WEEE wang wang~

6) good night world ! fainted.

7) will updates some bday pics soon, and gonna post more about yesterday , nov the 8th.

^^ 7 Nov 2010

2010-11-07T14:27:00.001+08:00

1) Excited ^^, turning 21 tomorrow.

2) celebrating with T2 customers >_<

3) Come home celebrate with exams preparations T_T

4) cant wait !!!!! =)

5) Happy birthday, Zen ^^

EMo

2010-10-31T23:30:00.002+08:00

I seriously dont have the slightest idea, of how all these end up becoming this way.

I went clubbing before, I went twice, I know exactly how it feels. I got drunk before at home, during my farewell party. I know, sometimes it feels good, but :

Dont tell me you feel good getting drunk. well, once of twice in a month, still alright, not everyday.
Whenever, i studied about liver, whenever i think about you are actually immersing your brain in alcohol and the way it diffuses into the brain, whenever i studied about cancer, WHEN I STUDIED EVERYTHING , YEA BASICALLY EVERYTHING I STUDIED, i thought about u both.

How could i, in the future, take care of your health, how could i, stand through everything bad things that are gonna happen. Look at the mirror, look at your white hairs, see how fast u aged.

See what effects the alcohol have done. I wish, really, drink less. Should you love us, should you love yourselves, try drinking less. I know what are you dealing with, u cant avoid a glass of two, but do try to restrain, not drinking too much.

Money makes the world go round, indeed, but without good health, you are only digging your grave and bringing money into coffin, dont have to worry about passing money for your next generations, because we are to be supporting ourselves in the future, you know we love you so much that i dont think we able to witness any pain you might be going through if you still insist drinking every night like you'll never drink again.

FACK alcohol !

Happy Halloween !

2010-10-31T00:16:00.002+08:00

Hello human !!! Happy Halloween !!

Oh yea, if someone appear on my doorstep, and knock my door, im gonna open it and scare the shit outta ya ! Ngek ngek ngek !

Have fun, whoever celebrating it .

28th October 2010

2010-10-28T01:22:00.004+08:00

1) I am now, officially on medication, started last month. Doctor said there is something wrong with my stomach, suspected a blockage in bile duct, or peptic ulcer, and i need to do an endoscopy for that ( we decided to do it in msia). I told the doctor, im alright, just normal gastric which have been torturing me for 10 years, with occasion gastric refluxs. God damn it that all these msges are delivered to my family, it worries them so much that (i know they love me !), they insist me to take the medication, which will make me FAT. So, i cant even ignore what doctor said. DONT laugh at me if i put on weights and some spare tyres around me !

2) My neck and heart are tingling nowadays, was it because of stress? or they are telling me that i should stop studying and doing assignments and go shopping, go for nice food, treat myself good instead? u know what, ass and books are killing me !

3) I heard the sound of wind charm the other day, and it brought some reminiscences back. Remember that in the old days, we have a huge wind charm hanging outside? with DONG DONG DONG sound instead of TING TING TING sound? because the wind charm rod is so big that it gives deeper sounds. Remember that, we always play badminton and cycling around the house. Bros ! i seriously miss the old times, that we could always play together, without problems tangling in ur and my brain.

4) In just 3 months time, i will need to say goodbye to Perth, T2 and yea friends.

5) It is so funny that, im happy being an ostrich, all that i know is running away from truth ! everything has changed, unlike what i had before in my old days, it is sad, indeed. However one thing that im pretty sure about it is that love has never changed in the "monster "club, shah alam house.

6) One happy thing to share ! i found my dreams ! and im telling myself, by the age of 30, bmw 5 series in hand ! if i dream, i dream big. Should you dream, please dream big !

2010-10-17T01:22:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, i feel annoyed when people update thier facebook's shout out, and they click the " like " button themselves.

Sometimes, i feel annoyed when people posting up shout out complaining about others' english. Yours not that goood though, so, shut your mouth.

Sometimes, i hate when people posted up all their cam-whoring pictures, and actually GRANTING a title like " my cam-whoring pic " for their cam-whoring album.

Everytime i feel annoyed when people put " DND " on msn while they'r appear online. U can appear off, or do anything else other than putting DND when u seriously meaning DND.

Those are just merely my personal opinion and view, neither right nor wrong. so, if u get offended er......er.......er......ERRRR......

Whats your biggest fear?

2010-10-16T00:08:00.003+08:00

My friend asked me today. " Whats your biggest fear or obstacles that you are running away from it and not facing? "

I said, accepting the truth.

What truth?

Truth that have been revealed to me, and the truth that might be revealing and truth that are to be revealed.

I am such an ostrich that I think I am alright to be denial, anytime, anywhere.

17-9-10

2010-09-17T01:40:00.002+08:00

I dont have the slightest idea to start this post, there are too many stuff tangled in my little pea brain ( i called myself pea brain , because my mom always claim that im brainless). I bet i will just jotting them down then.

1) Started staying up, to cram genetic notes into my pea brain, mid sem test on its way.

2) Love playing Jay's old and classical songs, while doing stuff i hate to the max ( study for exams )

3) Bear with me, i know i have been mentioning that i like JC for countless times, but i wanna shout again to let the whole world knows : " loving JAY CHOU- JC for a decade already !!! "

4) ouch it hurts again, the neck, cant u flow a bit slower? the faster the blood flow, the more frequent i got the pain.

5) It is 2am already, not going to hurt my liver any further, shall hit my sack now.

Good night world, peace out

15-9-10

2010-09-15T21:35:00.003+08:00

What?? another 2 months, everything is done !

everything happens just like yeterday.

" oh my god, still a long way to form 5 " (when i was form 1)

" Argh, can i end all these PMR seminars ?" (when i was in form 3 )

" bloody hell, i need 48 hours a day, how can it to be possible to finish all the thick phyics, biology and chemistry books? " ( Obviously, the most terrible fear, when i was in form 5 SPM, imagined the day i finish my uni - long way to go .............. )

" which College huh? CIN CAI LAH~ " ( end up i went KDU )

" Which Uni? local or murdoch~ financial problems, home sick? DIE LAH~ ( end up i chose murdoch)

AND now, 2 months left to graduate, i am so not happy ! I wish i could stop the time. ( people said : " Zen, continue LAH~ " )

Zen says :" its okay, i dont wish to continue anymore, and also, im not attending graduating ceromy, becaue i just simply dont feel like attending, i know that my family would love so much to attend this glory moment, but, i just wanna clarify that, i dont feel like attending, no point. "

However, up to this point, i seriously feel so much satisfied, i believe this would be one of the precious experience and memories that will be sear and engraved in the heart forever and to be brought down to the grave. The length of time, it matters not, the things i picked up matter. I thank for everything, the blessing, the love, and all the luck granted, all these that shaping me into a better person.

Guys, i still love you.

2010-09-03T23:55:00.002+08:00

Just had a nice game session with the group, the wolf games. As usual, i was the slowest one, i took longer time to understand how the game works and actually comes to a point that, i made everyone nearly choked to death.

The game is rather nice, but tensed, laughed like i'll never laugh before til my cheek muscles aching. I just simply miss my KDU group so much that, i could even imagine their ways of reacting if they were here with me in the games. I just simply miss all the times we have spent together, i believe there are not much people like us, we got to always hang out in a group together, even the reunion dinner for CNY, we had our own too. I always think, was it only me, who thought too much, they are important to me, and i always miss them, well maybe, no ones there missing me?

However, whatsoever it is, I am not afraid to say, i miss them tons. How much i hope to turn back the time, where i have all my KDU group to fill up my memories once again.

Meltz in Melb

2010-08-28T21:28:00.005+08:00

a short one in melb

2010-08-25T20:56:00.002+08:00

Hah, i've just came back from melbourne ! A short but nice trip with granma and aunt, although only spending two days there, taking hours and hours of car journey to those farms, visiting alpaca, cows, sheeps, and chickens =.="

Rush home to pack after class on friday night, then to domestic airport, departed at 1am, reached melbourne at 6 am local time on saturday ! Took the shuttle bus alone to the main train station and then guess what, i walked to the hotel, now, call me SMARTY !! haha. okay, then, journey started.

Til sunday LATE night, i met up some old friends there, all of them are from KDU ! And then, i walked mun joo to the tram station, so creepy eh joo, walking alone in the middle of night !

4am local time (melbourne) woke up and rush to the airport and reached perth at 9am.

14-8-10

2010-08-14T20:59:00.001+08:00

Felt sad, unhappy, also, missing home =)

7-7-10

2010-08-07T21:54:00.002+08:00

1) 帶走一切的恐懼, 沉默冷靜呼吸, 將懦弱放在原地

2) 我跟自己在下棋, 究竟有多少種戰勝的機率

3) 安靜使用暴力, 動作殘忍美麗

4) 不相信真心真意，选择绝情绝义

Last sem units

2010-08-04T00:43:00.002+08:00

Okay well, i have 3 last units to go for this very last semester of mine. Advanced in biomedical and science, genetics and evolution, and forensic toxicology. Worst still, the G- worded subject again, yes again, this semester, i dont have the slightest idea why am i in this course, seriously.

Nevermind, the best unit of this semester, Forensic toxicology. i supposed, my second elective unit. Oh yeah, my first elective unit was introduction to forensics, which i have done it during my first semester.

Well no granny's stories, the main thing i wanna share is forensic toxicology. The whole outlines of this course is about poisons, and the way it works in the consumer's body. Had a great lecture today with Professor Bob, sharing all the historical murder cases using posions. Arsenic, Thallium, mercuric phosphates,cyanides for instance.

Professor brought a good news, 6 students will be selected based on results, behaviours and also other aspects to attend something like a seminar, working with the real police forensics, to the crime scene, participating in investigations. It is now open for all the forensic student to apply, and i wonder whether i should.

Things to be considered :

1) applicants gotta undergo some interviews with authorised people.

2) applicants to interview with psychologist, checking behaviours.

3) those selected ones, got to pay for the whole seminar.

4) this thing will be held right after finals, November ( the best time to earn money )

Im pretty sure, consideration no.4 is not the main issue, because, money cant buy a golden experience like this. ( once in a life time )

The main thing i concern, is interviews, of all the students, i dont think i can be outstanding enough to be chosen, results do not play much role here. so no one cares you are HD or D student. There will be countless interviews to go, see? and also to pass the psychologist, i dont think i can even handle my own emotions.

And also to get a master degree in medicine, gotta sit for an exam in march next year, shall i or shan't i? i dont think i got the intention to pursue my studies.

With what i've got now, im satisfied, not asking much. Im happy with who i am, and happy with what i've got. Im happy because im loved. Im glad to have the chance to love people whom i treasure. Im blessed that my heart's still beating, im glad people i love is still loving me and their hearts are always be with mine,beating at the same time. Im happy in advanced that i will still open my eyes when the sun shines.

Good night world, peace out !

Harry potter theme park !

2010-07-31T00:25:00.003+08:00

Oh my gosh ! Harry Potter theme is now finally open for the muggles (non-magic people). The Hogwarts castle the magic school is brought to life!

Me a big fans of Harry potter, this is the best news in the century !! I do really hope i could get a chance to visit !! This is phenomenon !! I just cant wait i mean i just cant wait to save up some pennies to make it comes true !!

So sorry guys, couldnt post up any pictures because they are all authorized. If you are interested i have this link here to share, this link links the official blogsite of Harry potter wizarding world theme park. http://harrypotterworldorlando.com/

27-7-10

2010-07-27T01:15:00.004+08:00

1) I have been busy these days, hey hey not working, but fun fun fun and fun.

2) This is my last semester, i want it to be as memorial as possible, i joined the orientation activities with a group of Jack's friends. They are fantastic !

3) Yesterday, went out for ball games, but i didnt really play, i walked the dog instead. After ball games, went to EuVin's house for master chef finale !

4) Worked for the whole day with T2, guess what, i got 50 dollars voucher, saying that T2 did very well in sales, so they grant all of us ! woohoo !

5) After work, head straight to Murdoch, pizza times ( approx 30 pizzas there yo!!). Then, game session, lolz i ran like i will never run before, i started to talk a lot with them compared to yesterday. Fun wei, Fun !!

6) Dessert night tomorrow, if im going, hopefully it wil be another joyful night =)

7) oh yeah !! never felt this HIGH before ^^

6) Lastly, ok sorry-lah, bear with me, let me type 1 emo thing : thing i thought it is right, it is not right. i thought i did it for a better outcomes, but end up, there is always something wrong somewhere, how come?

Updates, 24-7-10

2010-07-24T22:55:00.002+08:00

1) Miss home

2) Bored to death

3) Uncertain, scared, worried.

4) Looking at Baby G watches, i love them !!

5) Keep recalling the dream.

6) Joining Murdoch orientation activities and events

7) Dilemma.

8) Feel like sleeping but dare not, worried that i cant sleep soundly til the next morning.

9) Love the smell of winter.

10) A question that will not be asked, and the answer will never be given.

Thankful.

2010-07-18T02:14:00.001+08:00

Something that i cant forget and i wont forget. Thanks, and i will take good care of myself.

17-7-10

2010-07-17T03:31:00.002+08:00

One thing u cant deny.

Money money money, makes the world go round and round and round and money money makes the world go round.

15-7-10

2010-07-16T00:28:00.002+08:00

Always the troubles maker to you, you and you, not just to one person, but to almost everyone near me, how long more these people around me can stand me being it. I dont know why, things i thought it's right, it is not right, i just wana do my best. Dont like seeing people suffering because of me.
Feeling my brain swells once again, as if the pressure in brain has increased, i need to sleep.

Obsession

2010-07-12T23:19:00.002+08:00

Im haunted by my own dreams, im stranded in this fantastic world, dont feel like being interrupted, the dreams i have been dreaming these few days can all be linked coincidentally, like there is something to put them together into one dream with a desired storyline.

I felt so good in the dream, I am so obsessed with the dream, as if my own drama is playing in my subconcious part of mind. Hopefully it continues later, when my eyes are closed and bring me once again into the other fantastic world.

12-7-10

2010-07-12T00:48:00.002+08:00

1) Who's gonna be with me tonight, to watch the last FIFA match. Oh waking up my bros !

2) Victory within the miles, almost there, dont give up now.

3) The andrenalin rush happens when im thinking too much.

4) Better left unsaid, so it is between you and me. (give u a wink )

5) Me study hard, and play even harder !!

6) Love bad guys.

7) Why there is so many damned restrictions?

8) It is never too late, but when it comes to me, it is always late.

9) I want those dreams again !! =] sleep earlier tonight.

10-7-10

2010-07-10T01:56:00.002+08:00

1）恶魔在身边看完了，继续追换换爱，4 位主角“恶”原班人马，继续贺军翔！

2）back to my room, again, everyone is asleep, im the one again. i couldnt sleep, insomia.

3) Bros are getting closer to me, which i claim a good thing. Parents are getting farther, which i think it is neither a good thing nor bad, but down. Mom, was once a wall of mine to rely on, my personal listenner, in a manner of speaking. Now, i dont even have time to see her. Yes, thats her new career and im fully understood she needs more time settling things outside, i dont mind really, but just, you know, when u got used of something previously, u need some times to get used to the changed one.

4) leaving home soon, feelings are all tangled.

5) Sore throat badly, seriously, it is serious. :p

6) I know, after my leaving, my youngest bro will be definitely feeling bored, without me straying in their rooms, doing stuff together, catching movies (pps). u guys should spend more time downstairs !

7) still haven't select my last elective unit, it is gonna be either marketting or forensics related.

8) My apologies to someone, but still, i think that should be the way.

Devil beside you.

2010-07-08T03:26:00.002+08:00

最近，每晚和弟弟们追看“恶魔在身边”，同时间，3 姐弟都爱上了阿猛（贺军翔）！>_<"

可惜我是天蝎座

2010-07-02T13:48:00.004+08:00

- 疑心重
- 记仇
- 不认输
- 凶狠
- 很悲观
-想太多
- 看不开

#所以如果我不做天蝎座的话，不知谁可以做。要是再不改这天蝎专属性格，我是不必开心了

21-6-10

2010-06-22T00:47:00.002+08:00

1) KDU gang's gathering, nice to have them back and walked around 1u like we used to be.

2) Happy ! but, meantime feeling down for certain reasons.

3) Tired, have been waking up early these days.

4) Im not aware of what I want.

5) Wanna get Gen 2 next year, if im back to msia. (one of my to-do-list), hopefully, i can have this fulfilled.

6) I felt... weird... things are not the same like how it used to be when i was just a kid.

7) im going off to bed.

18-6-10, Msia

2010-06-17T23:58:00.002+08:00

1) Have been fully occupied by workings on the day itself i finished all the damned papers, didnt have the time to blog and even packing luggage also done in a nick of time.

2) Came back, havent got the chance to meet friends ! Been going out these days with family, to pray, to my parents newly opened bistro at Giza complex and to rush for medical check up.

3) Got some nails manicure done today, all by myself =p Jin !! butterflies !!

4) Went to hosp for student medical check up, for government loan application, did basic tests, also one thing to be mentioned, Mantoux test, =.=" very painful, they injected the serum under the epidermis of skin ( under the skin) making the skin raised, some sort like edema. got to go back 3 days later, for consultations again.

5) Mantoux test is to test for tuberculosis. Outcomes - if it is still raised at the in jected area = tuberculosis. Normal people would have this "raised skin " digested by body immune system.

6) Came across with an interesting but gross documentary today, talked about existed parasites, its route of transmissions, and interviewers whom previously being infected by each of these parasites. Very geli, but nice to watch.

Reborn, soon

2010-06-08T21:53:00.002+08:00

1. I cant wait to head to the city, gonna eat, a lot, and shops ( window shopping) !

2. Exam fever is not ended, yet i feel like im free.

3. Plans for parties.

4. Putting on my sony headset, start blowing the speakers up, " dont stop make it pop".

5. I got no money in the pocket, what am i going to do? yay ! window shoppings!

6. I dont club, because, my headset is my private pub.

7. Im gonna catch u up right after 11.30 thursday. i have been losing myself with books.

8. Just dance.

9. Hello, im back, friday night, bring it over here, A-S-A-P !

10. Til then, im just gotta rock with my biomed paper.

7-6-10

2010-06-07T22:24:00.003+08:00

Life's sucks. If i were given an option, i chose not to come to the world, because :

1) all the creatures on earth, stepping each other foot path, a repeating cycle and process,
born->learn->study->work->getting married (some people bypass this) -> money-> death.
Very sick.

2) watching people u love dying before you. i bet i wouldnt need to describe how it feels. everyone knows.

3) things never go your way, u live, to suffer. because things tend to follow this formulae, 85% sad things and 15% happy things.

4) and im afraid of death, what if i come alive suddenly in the coffin when someone bury me 7 feets under?

5) DAD and MOM, u both never ask for my opinion, and u both brought me here.

Recent, 6-6-10

2010-06-06T01:46:00.003+08:00

1) tension's released, another paper to go next thursday, biomedical. Not as hard as genetics.

2) home soon. yay...wait, i mean YAY !

3) came across a blog, some short notes to make: if u got urself a job, a job that u have been working hard to apply, just suck it up, love it, dont complain, or u quit, that simple.

4) went to body shop today, bought Jack's birthday prezzie. First time actually spending time in the shop, oh my, wanting so much to have the papaya, and japan cherry body butter, they are so yum ! unfortunately, couldnt find any choc ones. Well, even if they have it, me still got to consider it. the price, people, the price..

5) i-pad, yes yes, indeed very cool, cos it is just a bigger i-touch.

6)i realised i can really do well in any subjects related to forensics ! but not the others.

7) how much i love KFC? very much. because im thinking about KFC again.

8) Realised, nana looks very weak now, felt guilty especially everynight before sleep.

9) Realised tea manager really very nice, im lucky.

10) no improvement in english, retarded.

11) Y am i always got stucked in notes and questions? cant i get stucked in a party?

12) i have got all freedoms here, and i am so good girl that i never stray outside til late night.

13) people said : zen u became so good girl already, even no one controls u in aust, u guai guai be at home huh. ( zen's thought : " of course la, wana stray outside also cant lah, shops close at 5pm, how? clubbing? no cars )

14) anticipating parents' newly opening club with a very very lousy and lame malay name, BOLA. even BOH-LUI sound better than BOLA, dad oh dad, y dont u listen to me?

15) finding myself a retard, blogging when i haven't got my revisions done.

16) stop.....study.

17) 2am, give me a break aight, good night !

3-6-10

2010-06-03T02:50:00.001+08:00

I want KFC !!!! T_T not genetics !!

say hello to genetics paper.

cant wait to say bye to genetic paper at 5pm.

letter to MK

2010-05-26T00:43:00.003+08:00

姑，谢谢那些狗狗的照片，你该知道我是从来没有放弃过，有时emotional一点罢了。学业还好，身体不错还肥了。还在努力中。你也是，court case，永远不要放弃，越难搞的东西，你越要搞定它。只有怕输的人才放弃。切记！=]

Ping ! In for a penny, in for a pound !

24-5-10

2010-05-24T00:42:00.002+08:00

Sometimes feel like crying, too much worries. Genetics exam next thursday. i felt so helpless, really. i tried my best to do it, im tired, it has been two weeks already.

Sometimes my mood swing, just because im tired, burning midnight oil every night, it is like burning my brain cells away, my head getting heavier. i just felt helpless and that is it.

I'll keep going.

KFC !

2010-05-22T01:22:00.002+08:00

我已经好久没吃KFC了。1.23am 我超想吃着kfc追电视剧！整桶kfc上！

3am in the damned morning with genetics

2010-05-21T02:47:00.004+08:00

2.47am, a bit warmer today, i guess that the reasons, i felt sleepy. Genetic's killing me, it is tearing me apart, i need food , FOOD ! chips, ice creams, chocolates !!

Couldnt open my eyes now, half closed, heading to bed. oyasumi.

Why setting mechanism of disease and genetic final exams back to back? * sigh *. still , got to keep moving.

namo namo namo, bless me with genetics.

Title? 18-5-10

2010-05-18T02:01:00.003+08:00

Yo, felt so happie today of what i have done. Something that made me smiled and laughed hoho...
Today after, worked, 6pm it was very dark already ( winter now ma~), i crossed the road to the bus station, still crossed though even the red light for pesdestrians.

After crossing, i reliased some one at the back, following me. An old man. And guess what, a car, appeared and there was green on traffic light for car the moment. Me wearing red shirt, went back to the road and.................

Something good happened, not bad things =] thats y it made me laughed, i think i met this old man before whom once i almost fell when i tried to pull him up form the bench.

Next thing, I've gone so OH MY GOD, when i realiased there are actually more to come, i thought that is what im doing. SEI LO~~

C2pid transperth took my 10 dollars away ! called to complaint, but actions are not taken. Grrrrr.........

Today, 18th May - im in a stupor state

20th May -> 25th May - i guess i would be in unconscious state

26th -> 31st May - coma state i supposed

1-2nd JUNE - the conscious state before ones is dying.

3rd JUNE - im gonna rock with my first paper til 10th June

10th June - after 2pm, im dead ! =]

ok, it is now 2 am- im going to faint , catch u later !

Damn emo ! get this shit outta my brain !

2010-05-15T01:27:00.003+08:00

The temperature is now dropped to 4 degrees, 1.30am, freaking cold.

A bit down today, wondering why. I've always wish for this semester to end fast, which also means, i left only one semester. arent this supposed to be what i wish for? to end fast? i dont know why, i realised, i havent really enjoy my uni life. im wasting the only enjoyable youth time in uni. I got not much friends here, what am i doing? i skipped classes a lot, i worked, i studied at home. And not joining any societies in uni, not aware of whats going on in uni.

My uni life's going to end, and end up, i've got nothing, besides a piece of paper that cost 31500 dollars. I felt so blank now. Happy to end? or Sad because it is coming to the end.

Continue to pursue my studies? no i think i wouldnt. I know my family would want me to go home, but i said before, i want something remarkable to happen in my life.

What the fack am i thinking now !

me and forensics

2010-05-10T01:55:00.002+08:00

It is 7 degree celcius now, freaking cold, and im still up at 2am studying mechanism of diseases, which most of the lectures it covers can be strongly related to forensic, absolutely my cup of tea. Im right now in the chapter of post mortem changes, talking about changes after death and those visible symptoms after death. I gto stucked initially at the part they talked about hypostatic congestion, read few times dont understand, and i wonder why a flashing back striked me, i actually remember what BOBBY said, the HK actor 欧阳震华, he played a main role in Forensic heroes series, which i reckon the best HK series ever. I remember lot of things he said in the show, well, when he was actually teaching those newbies.

And then, i tried to relate and yay !! i understood now. Cool isnt it? oh yea just for sharing, there was one theory he shared in the show, 凡走过必留痕迹。obtaining evidences are tough, but they are definitely there no matter how smart the criminal is, tyring to destroy.

Too bad, i am not in a real forensic stream, partly because of maggots and it is not recognised by Msia government unless I precede my studies in UK unis. so hmm, gave up.... But the passion, i will never have it disappeared.

Nostalgias

2010-05-02T01:45:00.004+08:00

Today, it was a nice and cheerful day initially, studied with my favourite songs. Til, i came across with a blog, written by a teenage girl, who had just lost her BF in a car crash. The blog made me felt so much like crying, even though i dont even know that girl. Her incident brought me few nostalgias, i thought of the lost of my good friend, who passed away of acute liver disease, no signs no symptoms, just gone. I thought of the tragic accident that happened almost a decade ago. The girl written there, she looked at her bf through the glass of coffin, the face, at the accident scene, reminded me of " him ", the last face of his i saw in 2003, with blood and sowllen.

I felt so bad now, i feel like crying, that post is too touching.

Losing someone we love dearly is seriously slicing the heart. I hope people whom i love, stay with me as long as it can be. And i wana grab a chance to tell the people i love, my family, friends. I LOVE YOU all =]

sicky human 2010

2010-04-26T19:08:00.005+08:00

Im not gonna race u, ima stay behind and watch u fail , evil? yes it is evil, but u've got to understand it, if u dont get it, ima give u 2 words, oh no, is 3 words " grow-up-LAH ".

Realised few things that, one must not not learn. After a leap into a bigger society, dont be happy when someone not close to u come to say HI. " HI " Thats a powerful magical word, it is incredible : Hi, how are you, bla bla bla, and then, hey do u know we've got to submit xxxx next xxx? Have u done it? oh Yea? can u please give me the whole thing ? "

I remembered, i was a danderhead few months ago, when i first came here, not familarise with the edu system here, understood not a single thing, with the burden of getting good results, i sometimes consult from my peers, whom i dont usually talk to them, i was bound to ask sometimes. End up getting lot of excuses, brought me round the garden then, the main point is not spoken. Sicky.

I used to share lot of things with my good friends, my peers, in secondary, KDU. But sadly, i realised there are lot of changes in me now, i learnt the way to return like for like, a Roland for an Oliver. Who is not afraid of plagarism in uni?

I've told the whole world, i have got retentive memory, i can remember lot of things, precisely, bad things. I wont harm u still, with all the consciences my granma teaching me to have all these whiles, with her good role model, we, the Lim's never harm anyone, but always get bullies from others. And so, ima only give you what gave me, u gave me an apple, i will give u 2 apples, if u give me shit, ima give u back the shit with some ..........

22-4-10 what the hell part 2

2010-04-22T14:17:00.002+08:00

Again, WHAT THE HELL ~!! got another msg from genetics lecturer saying that there will be another extension for report subimission . EXCUME ME ! u guys come against me? give me back my sleepless night and the all my damaged hepatocytes !! what the helll ! i think i should really go and have a real good break for myself this weekends !
oh yea, i still haven call my dad ! forgot, gotta call once i reach home. rushing back now and get ready to fry pizzas !!!! oh yea~